humbleness or lack there of.

So this topic is hard for me to write about but one of which I need to tell and put behind me.  I have always prided myself in being a humble person throughout high school and college.  In the beginning I know it was sincere but somewhere along the way it was no longer about humbleness but selfishness.  I knew that by being humble I would receive attention.  It was not until recently, after hearing a speaker, that I realized that I was no longer being humble as an act of selflessness but selfishness and it was no longer about God but me…and for that I apologize.  A great friend of mine who was always such an encouragement to me tried to tell me of my strengths and humbly/selfishly, I denied them to be true.  So my deepest apology goes to that friend and furthermore to God.  God sweetly broke me and showed me that He has given me certain things that I am personally good at and it is not wrong to recognize them.  It is not until you recognize these gifts that you can wholly give them up to God for Him to be able to work through those gifts He’s given you to further His kingdom and let His name be known.

So please learn from my mistakes (of which I am thankful for making because God has used them to mold me into the person that I am today) and be selflessly humble.  Humble is such a way that it is all about God and not you.

Luke 14:11 NIV “For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.”